anuansi

 24th February 2024, It was an memorable day. First time attending a board exam as an assistant superintendent. I was too nervous. Nervous means ,I think I wasn't these tensed when I attended my own 10th board exam.Yesterday ma'am gave all the instructions that to be followed in the exam centre. A single mistake from my side may destroy the future of a child. So I have to be more carefull.I have to be more conscious. I reached the school by 9.15.Went to Examination hall, signed in the book which kept for all the invigilators. Collected the bundle of answer sheets which were sent by the C. B. S. E- Delhi. Went through the answer sheet. Clarified all the doubts. Collected the attendence sheet of all the children in my hall. Reached the room by  9.40.Re- checked all the seating arrangements, Read the instruction that are pasted on the board related to all the bell time. I was getting more and more nervous. By 9.45 students started entering to the class. They are too tensed becaus...

  Ya allaah! Why always me?  I'am Fed up. Heal me from this.. I can't... It's my maximum... Better u call me....... 

  Ya allah!  What's happening with me? where you are taking me? what's your plan? it's been a long time since you are playing with my emotions. Iam fed up and Iam tired. Better you also get tired in it. That's better for us.  Is it a Yes or a No?Did I have to wait more?Or did I have to move on? If it is so then why you drapped me to it once again? I was somehow getting better na?Again you made me to stand in that old situation. Why You always wanted me to be sad and shy?  Anyway you are already having a plan na? Then let us know it. Please Allah! we wanted to know your plans. we can't wait anymore. we wanted to move on with your plans. Ya allah show some mercyness upon us. -anuansi

 "Some how u trying to get out of all the stuff and someone coming and making you remember all those things again".

                            BEST FRIEND I HAVE HEARD EVERYONE SAYING THAT, WE MUST KEEP A BESTFRIEND TO SHARE EVERYTHING, TO KNOW US THE BEST.IS IT TRUE? YAH! I ALSO BELIEVED SO UNTIL I LOST MY BESTFRIEND.IT HURTS…IT HURTS A LOT.SHARING EACH AND EVERYTHING WITH SOMEONE, WHATEVER BE GOOD OR BAD, SAD OR HAPPY. SHARING ALL THE MINUTE THINGS WITH SOMEONE, AND ONEDAY YOU LOSING THEM. THEY BECOMES BUSY WITH THEIR OWN LIFE. THAT DAY YOU WILL CRY, CRY TO YOUR HEART.IT HURTS JUST LIKE AN HELL..THEN YOU WILL STRUGGLE TO LEAD YOUR OWN LIFE, STRUGGLING WITH DECISION MAKING, STRUGGLING WITH THIS, STRUGGLING WITH THAT, EVERYTHING BECOMES A QUESTION MARK IN FRONT OF YOU. WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO SAY? NO IDEA. SLOWLY, SLOWLY YOU WILL OVERCOME, YOU WILL LEARN TO DO THE THINGS YOURSELF.STILL WE WILL MISS THEM. DEEP INSIDE YOU ,YOU WILL MISS THEM.YOU WILL PRAY FOR THEM,FOR THEIR GOODNESS.BECAUSE ONCE THEY WERE THE ONLY SHELTER YOU HAD.ONE DA...